In the Beginning

So my wife (Ninja) was uncharacteristically moody and emotional this one day. Nothing I could do would snap her out of it – and being a male, I considered it my duty to “fix” the “problem”. [Mainly because it was freakin' ME out]

One of us (I don’t remember who) quipped “Maybe you’re (I’m) pregnant“…

…Funny joke. It turned out to be true.

I remember distinctly the tropical storm of emotions and thoughts in me in the weeks which followed that discovery.

Emotions: overwhelming happiness / breath-depleting anxiety / helplessness in the face of the New and Unknown.

Thoughts: “Alright! I’m going to be a DAD!” / “What the hell do I know about fathering??” / “Where’s the $$ going to come from??” / ”Is that hair growing in my ear!?” / “Alright! I’m going to be a DAD!” / “So is there like a Dad Course or a book or something I can read to get this right?” / “Just wing it! You’ll be fine.” / “Man, I’m not ready for this!” / “It’s ok, I got a few months to prepare and study up on this” / “… Alright! I’m going to be a DAD!”

As you can see, in the beginning, my eldest son’s co-creator was anything but godlike!